Friday, August 14, 2009
Ira's said guys are more shy than girls .
Huud.aa;
Its been 4 days since i last update{: I swear loads of things occured during th past few days . &its suffocating me . Be it studies/relationship/friendship . So many things is occurring at th same time . I can't take it . I felt like knocking my head t th wall -.- I need t study . I can't failed , i can't . Omgawd . I wish i'm still a baby who had just been given birth , know nothing at all but cry .
Tuesday :
English was thought by that bloody old woman . I swear , her voice irritates me alot . She's sucha bxtch . Made people lose face infront of th whole class . Like wtf . Pfft . Skipped cca&watch th soccer tournament :D PeiHwa.VS.Nvss . Played soccer among ourselves&its so fun . &i did remember 7 people cried on that day . Fooh .
Wednesday :
Had a small mini quiz ferr science . Was not prepared at all . Oral communication was a blast . Th teacher was so dramatic . I loikkkkkkeeeeeeeeee:D Irritates andy&jinlong during math lessons . Muahhaha . I kept singing&singing . & called them laling.laling . HAHA . But i swear jinglong smelled like 'petai' . I could faint any moment just by , he opening up his mouth . -.- . Fer allah's sake {Ira's phrase :D} &i can't help but t looked at th mirror hidden inside my pencil case : D
Thursday :
First period was p.e . Had our 2.4km run . Omgawd . Huahua . I detoriate alot . Grr ! But surprisingly , my leg didn't hurt at all . Not even once . I've lose weight . YAY . Miss li wasn't at school so Mrs Ali took over fer geography lesson . Her expression is so funneh . Mouth exercise . HAHA . But we could actually understand better when she thought us . Huhuh . Went sci centre after school . Yay , no cca . Was dismissed at 1.40&had t assemble at 1.45 . Isn't it preposterous having a 5min break only ? Pfft .Th only thing that is guh-reat abt sci centre that day is because there's alot of mat salleh . *BigSmile* &&thr is this bigbigbig mirror {!} Proceed t omini max theatre t watch th 'Sea monster' movie . LOL . Th movie was kinda nice though . Had fun screaming .Huahua . Head back t school around 5+ . Had a vv.good laugh/singing in th bus . I sang this korean song t miss chua&she said it was awful . HAHAHA ! I didn't know th lyrics&so i made up myself . Stoopid kan . &&'Tarakucap' :D &it was said by th old folks : Not t laugh too much as th next day you will cry . I'm not being superstitious or something but its kinda true . Boo .
Its a real brain {!}
Disgusting tongue&Shasha♥
Don't asked me what she's doing .HAHA .
Nose .Friday :
Re-test ferr science , bleah . Followed by literature . Had lit class test todayy . I think i wrote rubbish ? Recess was as usual . But had this weird awful stinky smell . Tak boleh tahan bau dier . FOOH . Did math qns as a revision ferr th common test . C.M.E was next . Had t present a 30 seconds speech ferr th 'Yes we care Or Empower mind ' books . Thank god i was not chosen ferr todayy . Phew . Idk why but i kept looking at th clock t strike at 12.30P.M . Ahah . Finally dismissed&ferr th first time i brought textbooks home t study . Waited fer sha t end her cca&of we go . Board th same bus as AHNOOOOOOP&he confessed that he likes girl with nice fringe .
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To Azmeer :
I'm sorry alright ? Its all my fault . Blame it all on me . I told you not t wait , but you insist . Cause i know i can't accept you . I did felt guilty rejecting you every single time . But i really don't _____ you . How can i accept you ? Even if i did , i'll be deceiving myself . Both party would get hurt . Don't you get th point ? Yes , you're a nice guyy . Yes , you're sweet . Yes you're a gentleman [i'm not sure abt this] I really can't do it . If you still insist on waiting , how long could you wait ? A month ? A year ? Every guy's th same : Not A Faithful Guy . Wouldn't wait ferr a girl that long . I'm positively sure you're gonna find ferr another girl in few months or even few days later . Gawd , how thicked skin am i ? Maybe you've given up hopes on me now {: &yeah you said i've become sombong kan ? Yarhyarh , i sombong . Happy ? Whatever it is , i'm sorry ferr everything . I'm sorry if i've ever been harsh on you . You've got much more choices .
To this guyy name Alfi from NVSS :
Who th hell are you ? You're a stranger . Completely stranger . Are you insane or what ? Suddenly message me&asked me loads of questions . &worst you're asking me illogical questions ferr heaven sake . You're totally freaking me out . I don't even know how your appearance looked like ? I don't even know details about you . I don't even know how yknow me ? I don't even know how th hell you get my number ? I don't even know how th hell you get t know that i lived in hougang . You're irritating me , ALOT . You're wasting my precious time/prepaid . Fuck off from my life , i.diot . Idiotic guyy .
To Shahidah :
I wanna say : Thank you . Thank you . Thank you . Thank you ferr everything . Thank you ferr th advises . Thank you ferr th support you've been giving me . Thank you ferr cheering me up when i'm down . Thank you ferr consoling me . Thank you ferr listening t my trouble{s} You've been sucha guh-reat friend/wife . I know these phrase : 'Don't be sad ' Stay strong ' 'Think positive ' 'Don't cry' had been said t you by countless people . I think you're tired of hearing those words but what else can you/we do ? Its either you have t move on OR wait [thats what you're doing] I don't know what else i can do ferr you ? Advice{s} are given . Its up t you now . You make th decision .
To Akif :
Stop pestering me t helped you . You're using me . You're being selfish . What will i benefit by helping you ? You're th one who would get th benefits not me . You're begging me t message him/layan him so that he won't be upset and you can win seri ayuni heart ? You're afraid that he'll take her away from you ? Of all girl{s} why her , i.diot ? She won't picked a guyy like you ferr heaven sake ! I'll salute you if she picked you . -.- . &worst still you told me t _______ with him ferr few days ? What do you think i am ? What do you think this is ? Love game ? What a guyy , pfft .
To-whom-it-may-concerned :
I don't know what you want . I don't know whats on your mind . I don't know if you're lying . I don't understand . I don't , I don't . You like her but you loves her . I thought there's hope but i guessed not . Likes&Loves its two different things , completely different . Huge different . My hopes went up and down [this sentence seems weird] I'm worried . I'm afraid . I'm confused . I'm tired . I felt like giving up . I just wanna____ you . I don't expect anything from you , really . I'm not gonna ruined your lives nor make your lives miserable . I wish i ____ tell you . Big mistake . You're being sucha chauvinist . Its so awkward now . I don't know how t ______ you . You're making things difficult or was it me ? Or was i thinking too much ? I guess you're not even bothered by all this stuffs or thinking abt all this stuffs so why should i ? I'm making myself more miserable . I'm making myself more unhappy . I'm torturing myself . Till th end of time ,
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